If I could go back in time...

I have to be held accountable even if no one reads it I have to be able to face myself and hold myself accountable. I have “fallen” off the bandwagon I have started to eat sugar, I feel terrible after I do it and yet I just cannot stop myself. What in the world is wrong with me!#*&^! I know that it is wrong but how do I stop. I feel like I have put myself in prison!!!!! There are all these things that surround me that sound so good and everything is caving in on me!!!! I have expectation of myself. Monkey had this idea that I start a stamp chart for myself every day I do not eat sugar I get a sticker if I eat sugar I lose a sticker. I think I might do this…. After thirty days I get a new outfit maybe….. in a smaller size maybe… What do you think?
I have come to realize this about myself I need to compete with me! I need to learn to support myself in my own desires. It is like I am walking towards something in my dreams and instead of reaching it I allow it to fade away and go back to being an “unattainable dream” I used to be this brat nose girl who didn’t understand what the word unattainable meant , if I wanted it I set out and did what I needed too, to achieve what I wanted. If I were able to talk to my past self I would kick my own but for letting myself get in the way. When I was younger there was no fear. I just did what I needed to do get it done. If I failed I didn’t get hurt about and distracted I tried something else.
Now I just need to follow my younger versions advice. Just get it done do not complain, and find a way. There is no longer anytime for self-pity your dream is reachable tomorrow. Stand up and be the woman you want your daughter to emulate; and do it today!

2012 Plan

PLAN
This new year I am taking a semester off of school. There are many factors in my decision but I feel that the most important one is  because I need to work on me. There are so many things that I want for myself that I have neglected due to time. So now I need to come up with a plan.
The following is a plan for 2012
A plan for 2012
Work on my spiritual side daily
{How this can be accomplished}
Read Scriptures Daily
Read a daily talk
  Pray more
Hold regular FHE

Work on my Relationship with the hubby
{How this can be accomplished}
Do something everyday for him so he knows how much I love him
Stop and think before I react
Take a more active interest in his hobbies
Forgive more fight less

Work on my Relationship with Megs
{How this can be accomplished}
Do something everyday so she knows how much I love her
Be more understanding
Do something fun with her everyday
Talk less and listen more

Work on Relationships with friends
{How this can be accomplished}
Talk less listen more
Do more for them to lighten their load
Let them know more how much I appreciate them

Work on getting healthy physically and mentally
{How this can be accomplished}
No sugar
Reduce refine carbohydrates
Do yoga daily
Work out daily
Surround myself with positive people
Do something for me everyday
Yell less
Create more

I think with these things will help me create a better life for me and my family. What are your plans for making a better life next year?

I hope your day is blessed!
Tiffany